#沒標題

這陣子我真的變得跟以前不一樣了，我知道真心對待我的朋友都會知道吧？
其實這陣子我的身體狀況很虛弱，也不可以隨便出門
其實自己真的很想念以前可以說出門就出門，現在自己很想出門都不被允許。
得了這個病我覺得我真的很不幸，我現在終于明白他們的痛苦了。
每天需要吃一大堆葯，一起床就要吃3粒，早餐過後要吃8粒。
就因爲吃太多葯,現在吃什麽都沒味道，大魚大蝦都是淡的。
因爲身體狀況 ，醫生不允許我去學校。
不去學校很悶的，一個人在家，都沒人陪我聊天，每天只看電視過日子，
不然就是看人家更新微信，也沒有人微信我聊天。
可是都習慣了一個人的生活，沒有別人我也可以活下去。
當時去拿報告的時候，我真的很怕很怕，手一直震抖，眼淚也不能控制就流下來了。
我人生第一次感到那麽的害怕。
拿了報告后，我被嚇傻了，整整在家裏坐了3天。那時候我就覺得想死，也迷失了自我。忘了人活著的意義是什麽，我覺得我已經跌進了人生的谷底。
我一直都把東西藏在心裏，有時候真的很累很累。
朋友也漸漸的變得冷淡，從他們的眼神就可以知道。
看著以前和朋友出去一起拍的照片，想到自己現在無法過這種生活，有時候恨自己。
我也有對不起他們，但是還是希望他們能健健康康，快快樂樂的過日子。
這幾晚我一個人躲在被單了哭了，那種感覺很好。有時候自己可以比上眼睛，去傾聽身邊的一切，是一件很幸福的事。一個人哭著哭著，就睡了。早上起床時才發現自己原來哭了一整晚，枕頭還是濕的。一切的一切，誰知？自己才是最了解自己的人。

#stressout

I was so stressful this few days ...
But no one knows that ..
Because I hide it so well right ?
Maybe I was a person who likes to give myself stress
Sometimes I dun know how to get rid of those stress
I dun wan to carry those stress day by day ...seriously ..
Even I'm in a tough situation ...
But I just can't speak out , I can't find someone that really can accompany me ...
Maybe there was a few one , but I cant tell them ...
Exam is probably the worst thing ever for me...
I hate to see myself getting those low grade result
Even I studied hard , I just can't get a good result ..
I dun know why , and I dun know how
But I think I have to put more effort into study from now on
But sometimes I will ask myself :
"If u put more effort in study , u can get a good result .... Maybe ?"
This is not an easy yes or no question anyway ...
I failed so many subject in exam this time , I'm very sad seriously...
And I'm so alone , everytime , anytime , anywhere ...
No matter what happened , I just have to bear it myself ..
I always had to keep my mouth shut when there is something happened on me ..
And there is alots of problem that bother me now ,
I totally lost my apetite because of those sh*t ....
All I can do for myself is acting alright all the time </3

#badmood

Yes , you are the one who never cares about my feeling since I was a kid and now I feel like you wanted to destroy our family because of your impatient and your bad temper. Seriously , can you stop your fucking stupid action from now on and just shut the fuck up? I really tired because of you ... AND PLEASE STOP DRINKING YOUR STUPID ALCOHOL !!!

#random

所有的天蝎都孤独

没有一个蝎子不孤独的，而且他们不害怕孤独，反而可以去享受孤独的滋味。蝎子每过一段时间都要去自己单独的呆一会，他们这个时候会反省自己以前一段时间里所做的一切对于自己现在来说是对还是错误的！

不 过，他们并不渴望孤独，相反，他们他们渴望的是有人可以把他从孤独里带出来，所以他们会异常的珍惜他们的朋友和爱人，因为只有和真的朋友在一起的时候蝎子 才不会感到孤独，因为他们投入的特点，所以蝎子都会十分的厌恶背叛和欺骗！他们不会去背叛和欺骗自己的朋友，同样，他们也同样的要求自己的朋友和爱人不可 以背叛自己，欺骗自己。

#heritage

Today was a wonderful day ! :) ❤
Long time didn't spend my time at outdoor with friends
Today I went to the Heritage area for the first time and suddenly I feel proud to be a Malaysian.
There are so many different culture in Penang.
And finally I had the chance to experience those culture by myself :D
We cycling around the Heritage area and search for some amazing place to take photo.
And the place I like the most was 3D Museum !!❤❤❤

#moment

I found that U are so attractive for Me
Can't stop thinking about U ❤
U dosen't need any plastic surgery
And U have your own charm to attract people
And U not really care about your image
U just did everything to make your fans love U more ❤
And U're such a talentful person
Especially dancing
Thats makes me like to dance more and more ❤

#proud

2014/06/21
It was a wonderful days for me ! This is the first time I perform with my friends who learn dance at a same place :) Before that we are always in a awkward situation cause we don't know each other, but now the condition turns better , we know each other from now and I hope I can perform with them again. Yeah , and Sean was a good trainer :) He is my favourite trainer all the way and forever ! He is so positive , passionate and he always motivate us if we are not confident. After the performance , we go back to our dressing room and he started to praise us and he said we are much better then he thought we will be. I am happy and proud when I heard those praise from Sean. Lastly, I hope our relationship will be more closer in future ! :)

#excited

2014年5月27日
這個日子對我來説是很有紀念價值的一天
自己和團員們都辛苦了好久
就是爲了能在這個有意義的一天裏表演
雖然不是一個很完美的表演
雖然會有人批評， 有人會稱讚
甚至有人會不把它當一回事
但是可以把我們辛苦準備的表演呈現給大家看
可以聽到別人為自己的表演而鼓掌的那種感覺是你們無法想象的
人生的第一場表演
第一次得到觀衆的掌聲
第一次得到別人的稱讚
人生短短幾十年 可是卻有著很多的第一次等你去破例 等你去挑戰 :)

#excited

那天你突然叫我過來，然後叫我的手伸出來。
你給了我一顆糖果，你說這是你欠我的一顆糖果，你說你贏了比賽就會請我吃，可是就單單一個葡萄口味的軟糖，足以讓我開心了好幾天(っ◔◡◔)っ ♥ 謝謝你的糖果 ♥ 到現在我還捨不得吃的說 (っ◕‿◕)っ ♥ 我會永遠記得這一天的 （‐＾▽＾‐）

#happymoment

這幾天真的很開心， 尤其是生日會當天 ， 真的謝謝你們陪我玩到這樣瘋~感覺我們都是很多話聊的同班同學 ，可是就是不是很熟 。。。期望以後可以在一起出去玩 (ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc) 中學時期果然是最幸福最珍貴的，不敢想象以後我們都畢業了，也不再聯絡彼此了，我們還會記得那些開心的回憶嗎？⁀⊙﹏☉⁀希望這一刻可以永遠停下來(╥﹏╥)

#today

今天我的學校舉行了義賣會，看到ｔａ　</3
剛剛我和朋友買了食物，然後去找地方坐下。
剛好坐在ｔａ旁邊的桌子，不知道ｔａ還記不記得我ಠ_ಠ

＃今天人很多，不小心撞到了ｔａ　－３－可是還是不甘願看到ｔａ牽那個女生的手(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ

#初戀那件小事

今天我重看了《初戀那件小事 》 ， 發現那女主角的情況跟我很相似... T____T

＊每天下課後都跑去某個地方，只為了等待心儀的對象經過

＊刻意經過他身邊，只為了讓他看到你
＊珍藏他碰過的東西

＊打電話給喜歡的對象時會緊張
＊想盡辦法讓自己變的更優秀
＊會因對方微小的行為開心不已

＊會因為比情敵還要稍微有進展而驕傲
＊因為喜歡的對象對自己好而開心，而後發現他對某個人都那樣做時而覺得自己是個笨蛋
＊知道自己喜歡的人有男（女）朋友後，強顏歡笑與失神的樣子

#omg

O.M.G !! I can't accept the truth !!
Today he find me on WECHAT !! I'm going crazy ☜(˚▽˚)☞ We chat for a few hours and I really enjoy the moment ✿◕ ‿ ◕✿ He is so friendly OMG , I cannot bear it anymore ☜(*▽*)☞I'M GOING TO EXPLODE !!

Blue...

昨晚有一個男生叫我當他女朋友， 可是被我拒絕了。但是他對我說了一句非常感動的話，這又讓我想起了那個特別的ta 。:(

當時我肚子餓了，ta自卑的說了一句：“榕，對不起，都怪我沒有交通，如果我有車，我早就買食物送去你家了” 。簡簡單單的一句話這句話足以打動了我的心，當時的你是多麽的貼心，可是現在都被我搞砸了，以前的時光都是過去的回憶，沒辦法挽回了。。。

昨晚半夜肚子餓了，就自己下樓煮碗快熟面吃。怪自己運氣不好吧，打了一顆不新鮮的雞蛋。自己也不在乎了，就把它吃下肚子裏。告訴自己這碗面是你辛辛苦苦煮出來的，只爲了不讓我餓肚子。最後還是一邊流淚一邊吃完了那碗“你煮的“快熟面。:'D

鹿 晗 ♥

昨晚夢見了你 ， 讓我好高興 :)
夢見你和其他成員一起出席粉絲握手會 ，可是其他成員的粉絲比你多而且也很熱情，我看見了你一個人孤零零的低著頭，就邀了幾個朋友一起去跟你握手，看到了你臉上燦爛的笑容和滿足的表情
我也感到很欣慰 ，和你握手的那一瞬間仿佛自己已經陷入了一個奇妙的世界裏。因爲你那溫熱的手掌和我冰冷的手掌瞬間接觸的時刻是最難忘的。這麽簡單的夢讓我對你的感覺又有了進展 <3 :) 我會永遠記住這個夢，也會永遠支持你的 :D

這個夢跟現實生活根本是不一樣的 ，現實生活的你是個人氣爆紅的鹿晗 ，也是一個活潑開朗的鹿晗(っ◔◡◔)っ ♥

#2nd

The dance routine of today inspired my soul and I wish I can learn all the step as soon as possible（‐＾▽＾‐）. And I have decided to quit my Symphony Band .. cause I wan to put more effort into dancing . I cant focus on 3 things at the same time , I will stressed out for sure ...(╥﹏╥) The things that made me confuse is whether the Band can allow me to quit or not , if they don't let me quit .. I will get depressed and I have to force myself to continue with the band (╥﹏╥) This may ruin my mood for months or even a whole years ಥ_ಥ

#random

OMGG , I wan to cut this hair !!! \ ˚▽˚ /

So YENG T.T But it only looks good in another colour except Black (っ-●益●)っ
I have to calm down and accept the truth ಥ_ಥ
WHY SCHOOL NEVER LET US DECIDE OUR OWN HAIRSTYLE ? ͼ(ݓ_ݓ)ͽ

#Throwback

15/11/2014
Dear my friends , I won't forget what we did for that day . I just wan to say Thank You ..
U guys made my day , even it just a meal for my Birthday ;)
                             -feon_karuna

Dream ~ :)

Suddenly felt very blessed with no reason.
I could smile with no reason for the whole day
Maybe there is something good come towards me  :)
Finally I can start my dancing lesson with a partner !
Hope she can keep going on with me ..
All I wan is do whatever to reach my DREAMS
And I wan my parents to be PROUD of me :D

Disappointment...

每個人都以爲當家裏最小的那個孩子， 往往是被人疼愛的
可是那些只是表面的説法而已。等到你有一天變成了家裏最小的那位，
你就會發現當家裏最小的孩子是不容易的事情。。。他們往往都要遵守大人們的話，
但是有時候如果你忘了他們交待你的一件事情，他們會不管你的面子，在大庭廣衆下罵你。

不管我做什麽，他們都不在乎 ， 把我當垃圾一樣看待。
不管我怎麽做， 到最後都會被責駡。
不管我多無辜，都會被他們冤枉。
不管我怎麽被他們責駡，冤枉，
我也只能忍住，默默的在安靜的夜裏，躺在冷冰冰的單人床上，
懷著失望的心情，留著沒人看得見的眼淚入睡。。

我知道有些人看完這編日記后，都會覺得我很幼稚或是不知足
但是如果你有經歷過的話， 你就會知道那種心情和感受。。

Broken Heart

ENOUGH !
I can't bear it anymore ... I know you have a relationship with another girl ... But please take care of my feeling ... Don't act sweet in front of me with your girlfriend ... I'll jealous .... So , please don't ... :')