#update

正式離開中學已經是5天前的事情了，但是現在想起以前還是會有點不捨。想起自己再也沒有機會見到那個“他"了，心裏還是會有一點心酸的感覺。“他“永遠都不會知道其實自己一直以來都有人一直挂念着“他“。其實真的很討厭很討厭自己，爲什麽沒有勇氣跟他坦白。可是我知道要是有得重返中學時代，我也一樣不會跟他坦誠一切。因爲如果我這麽做的話，他不可能會像現在那麽幸福。我真的很狼狽但心裏還是一直在祝福他們的。坦白說，我這些年在這件中學就讀，最幸福的事情就是可以每天看見你與我插身而過。能在中學時期遇見你真的是我最最最幸運的一件事情。我之所以會努力突破自己，並且挑戰自己去做自己沒有辦法做到的事情，其實一切的一切都是爲了你。如今畢業了，就算你對我沒有什麽感覺，我還是會很想讓你知道我中學時的熱血都是因爲你。那麽多年了，屬於你的就只有畢業照。我很想學會放下你，我是說真的。但是自己好像一直都辦不到。只要到晚上就會自動想起你，3年了每天還是一樣。我選擇不告訴身邊的人關於你的身份，是因爲我不別人看我笑話。因爲自己的愚蠢而愛上了這一輩子不能愛的人。以前看你一個人的時候都是靜靜的，沒什麽話， 一幅很有責任感的樣子。雖然到了上學的最後一天你也是那麽的有責任感，心裏真的會感到很欣慰。也許未來你會過得更快樂，但是我想讓你知道要是你有需要人陪，我還是會盡力抽空的。因爲我最後一個小小的可能就是求你有快樂人生。

致：“他“

#recently

After the graduation ceremony , I felt really blue just because I know I can't let go all my friends who have been together for almost 3 years or even more ... That day , we took a lot of picture together as a remembrance. Even though its hard to leave but what can I do ? Time flies like a bullet in all of sudden. Memories started to fade away after so many months and years. If I have a choice , I would like to go back to my very first year in this school and gone through all these thing for once again and I promised I will be more hardworking person and I will never ever argue with my friends no matter what happened. Now as a student in this school , we have done our thing. After finishing , wonder what the future will bring. Will we still be close after time passes by , or is it really the time when we say goodbye? Nobody really knows but as time goes.

"United we stand, divided we crumble."

#3yearsofcrush

昨天不懂爲啥會無緣無故夢到你...
哈哈當時其實我不想要起床的，多想要留在夢裏面
因爲我知道醒來后一切都不可能發生
不過就算能夢到你我也很滿足了
夢裏的你笑得很甜也很蠢>///<
還記得夢裏你第一次跟我講話就是
“你不要騙我啊 ~ 我很笨的阿我告訴你 ~！“
那句話我會永遠記在心裏珍藏的 ❤
就因爲這個我心情超好的 ！！ ☺

#itscomingbackagain

Why is my life so tough ? This is the question that I always wanted to ask myself ...

But too bad , I can't give myself an answer for this question.

There are so many ups and downs in my life , I just can't stand it anymore...

When something good is happening soon, there is always a bad things waiting for me.

I love my family , but why are you always try to make us struggles so much?

We don't need wealth but we need health.

None of us want to be sick anymore. There is no point for us to face this challenge for so many times. We are only human not robots, we feel.

I know my own responsibility as a daughter , I know what to do.

Even though these things happens again and again, but at the end I know I manage to be the winner of this game. Because I have to win.

#someoneiadore

Introduce to y'all about my special one.
The name is Tosh Zhang , he borned in Singapore.
He was an Youtuber before he enter the entertaiment industry.
Tosh is a talentful person. He knows how to compose song, edit video, piano, breakdance, acting, rapping,etc...
Maybe he don't look handsome or attracting , but it dosen't matter at all.
As long as he is a talentful person. The reason why I adore him is because of the role he plays in Ah Boys To Men. He was a very passionate person in that movie and he wants everything to be perfect.Recently , he wrote a song about his own experiences in this entertaiment industry and its is a very motivating song :) The title of the song is " What more can I say " and its available on iTunes too :)

#itsgettingbetter

Its 10:40p.m. now and guess what is in my mind now ?
Can't believe this is the first time i felt that my life is getting better compare to the old one.
Few more weeks to the end of the treatment.
I can't deny that the treatment has made my life so much tougher.
But now everything is changing and I'm really happy about this :)
10 months passes like a bullet and I realize that time flies subconciously.
Apparently, I never though that I could go through all these obstacles but now I'm on my way to the final destination :) This is really great for me because finally I can put my entire effort into studies. I knew its gonna be challenging for me but this is my duty as a student. Wonder why I always change my mind , actually god is treating me good. At least they gave me a wonderful experiences and lots of unexpected situation, but it won't shoot me down so easily :)

#itsgettingcloser

After facing so much struggle , now I finally can accept the truth :)
Its all contributed by my best friend who always stay by my side.
They might not know what is happening to me but all I have to say is "Thank You"
Day by day , we are approaching towards the graduation ceremony and suddenly I felt so blue. I can't believe that we all are going to graduate soon...
We all might lost contact after graduate but they will never be forgotten by me :)
Thinking back those stupid little things we used to done together, I realize we all have grown so much ...
Although I will be graduate soon but I still can't decided what to do after graduation.
I am lost and can't even plan for my future career , but I guess everyone also have the same feeling like me. Praying hard for a smooth and easy life but I know it never comes ... Life is always full of challenges and waiting for us to solve. At the end , I will keep fighting for my own future goods just to be sure that I won't let my family disappointed.:)