#dream

This few day I can't stop missing you ...
U keep appear in my dream and I wish what you did inside that dream was real .
We were really close to each other in that dream
I seriously don't feel like waking up from that dream
You did everything which I expected you to do
But the bad news is ... thats only a dream , an imagination , an illusion
Reality is always the cruelest
I have to pretend that I'm okay even I met you.
I wanted you to look into my eyes and you will realise what is my feeling towards you ...

#secret

To : Myself

Yeah ... he ignores you but you like him , he does nothing yet you fall for him and you miss him even though you know he's never thought about you. 💔 Boy never realize how much one little thing can hurt a girl ... At the end , I knew that

" to love someone is nothing, to be loved by someone is something , but to be loved by the one you love is everything..."

For me , the hardest thing to do is watch the one you love , love someone else. So , I stay home alone , listen to music and finally end up thinking too much ... and my feeling was like

"I don't deserve to be loved..."

I thought you were different.
Unfortunately , I was wrong ...

#lost

You have no idea how much I loved you. I know you are happy with her because she can give you happiness and I wish that I was the girl who used to be with you now. But the feeling inside my heart is so strong and I can't control myself anymore. Every night I was thinking about you and end up crying for whole night. You know right ? That I was envy about her ... And the only thing I can do is let you go , but it's hard to untied something that has been mess up from the beginning. Time passes , and I know I will accept the truth at the end of the story and turn into a totally different person once again... :)